My candle burns at both ends;
It will not last the night;
But ah, my foes, and oh, my friends--
It gives a lovely light! -Edna St. Vincent Millay, "First Fig" (1920)
Last year I read Bobbed Hair and Bathtub Gin....writers running wild in the twenties....Edna was one of them.
Rollie vs. the DMV:
This in an excerpt from my day.
Get up study for written exam. Drive 35 minutes to DMV office in Martinsville.
Arrive at DMV and check lipstick and hair just in case we can't use our pic from last summer. ( I mean I will have this pic for 10 years. I would like to look decent. Stand in line.) Greet Ms. Info lady, she takes paperwork.
me: "Could I please keep my picture from this license since I just had it made for my name change last June?"
Ms. Info lady: "No...sorry...that's not possible."
me: "But it's new."
Ms. Info lady: "Sorry Sweetie it doesn't work that way."
me: "It's just I really liked that one, and I have a really good tan in it."
Ms. Info lady: "Well see if they will make your picture darker so you will look tan."
Step 2. Sit in my little chair and wait. Look back through my study guide. My number is called.
Ms. DMV: "Mrs. Clark would you put your forehead there and read the line 1 for me please?"
"yes" "Right there." "Line 1 please."
(I didn't see a line 1, just several lines...) "you mean this top line, this SVPNF line?"
"Yes, that one."
me: I finish the line. "Do you want me to read all the other lines?"
DMV: "Could you?"
me: "oh yeah."
DMV: "That won't be necessary."
me: "Hey look at the little signs down here..." (they were under the lines in the machine.)
"Those are for the elderly. Tell me when you see blinking lights."
We get through this and move on to the paperwork.
me: "I know this is awful but if I can't decide about the organ donation mark, is there anywhere online I can go specify what I want done? I want to help someone but I am scared to mark that little box."
DMV: "Don't worry about it. Lots of people are afraid." " Mrs. Clark you have let your license expire. I need your passport of birth certificate."
"What? I have to the end of the month how could it be expired?"
"You used to have to the end of the month but the law has changed."
"Well when did it change?"
"About 2 years ago."
"Well how are people supposed to know that?" "I've always waited until the end of the month."
"Exactly, that is why we changed it. So everyone wouldn't wait 'til the end of the month." "I have to have one of the two. Do you have any of those with you?"
Well of course not. Why would I be carrying around my birth certificate?
"I can get my birth certificate from the house but it is all the way in Stuart. And it is the one that Surry Co. (NC) printed out for me to travel with."
DMV- "We can't have photocopies. It must be an original."
me "The one my MAMA has with my feet prints on it???" "I am not sure where..."
DMV: "No we don't want the one with the feet prints that your mama has....does the one you travel with have a seal?"
"Then go get that one." "And hurry up and do it and get back. And come back to me. If you don't get back today I will have to suspend your license. Don't stand back in the information line just come directly back here. Here is your paperwork."
me: "So I don't have to take the written test?"
"No...why would you take the written test? I haven't said anything about a written test."
me: "It's just...." I trail off realizing I'd be awfully stupid to say it was because I had several speeding tickets during my last 5 years and that was the reason I didn't get my license renewed in June when I changed my name. Because they told me I would have to take the written test again because of the tickets. No Rollie, shut up for once.
.....so I run to the car and take off for home. Try to get Toonces on my cell to find out where he keeps his passport and my birth certificate. Call Sharon and my sister to make sure they know about my problems. Take my earrings out because they are hurting my ears. Feel guilt ridden over my empty organ donor space....imagining Dena that I don't even know personally just being disgusted with my selfishness. It is just I was superstitious that as soon as I checked the box something bad would happen to me so that someone could take my organs away. And I worried about not having them for heaven which is stupid I know.
I get home. Find my birth certificate and take back off. Wondering if the DMV thinks I am like the ditsiest girl in the state. To actually have some intelligence, you would never know it at certain times. I do decide on the way back that people are born without sight, with birth defects, people are stabbed and lose organs in this lifetime.....In heaven it will all be new and good and it says in the Bible the greatest gift is to give your life for someone elses. So that settled I checked the box. Planning to make sure Toonces and Melanie never let them take out my eyeballs after she had mentioned it on the phone. I have to take baby steps.
Back at DMV, after waving a 2nd time at the big head of a friend on a billboard down there, I recheck my makeup and find that is now shiny from the heat and running around . I reapply lipstick and go back in. My counter lady has gone to lunch. I grab DMV lady number 3. She is not happy that Marilyn can't finish it herself as she is at lunch. She needs my license that I can't seem to find and fear were left at window one. I take everything out of my purse and find them. She looks down at my new fuzzy duck key chain with the big "D" on it from the Peabody. And I know what she is thinking..."I know what that D needs to stand for....dumbass girl with your little fuzzy duck."
She asks for $20. I forgot to have my money ready. I pull out 3 balled up wads of cash made up of fives and ones. "Sharon would be so ashamed of me." I thought. She hates it when people don't keep their money in order. It was just that I had come off the trip and stuck ones here and there. The lady watched me like I was a buffoon. After I counted out 4 fives she ask if she could change in for the ones. I am sent to my seat to await my picture being taken.
I fool with my hair, try to dab the sweat off my face and realize I don't have on my earrings. Crap. So much for the new photo. No glamour in this one I'm afraid. I look like just a sweet little ordinary wife.
When Toonces got in from work he wanted to see it and was disappointed. "It's good, but it just isn't the same. The other one looked like you were going to a ball. Oh well."
Later as we sat on the porch to enjoy the warm weather I told him about the organ card and that I needed a living will but for now he and Melanie would just have to let them know what to take. My liver, my kidneys, heart....no taking my whole eyeball out. I thought they could just get the cornea.
Toonces: "Because you want to see when you get to heaven."
me: "shut up."
Toonces:" Burn victims. Now they can use your skin."
me: "What the hell is wrong with you? Don't tell me about that. I don't want to lose my skin. I have a burn....no, I can't be in my coffin with no skin......why would you even say that? I am worried about the eyeballs and you say skin?"
I have a long way to go, I know, there are some things I can't take the thoughts of. Not yet. Drama queen has a bit more mellowing to do....but I did check the box...that is what matters.
Photo for today: Lilly trying to look all pitiful.
***The Delta photo album is complete for anyone who wants to check out Memphis and Mississippi***
2. My hot date with Toonces fave to wear: Amor Amor, by Cacharel
3. Perfume I love on others but never works on me: Happy, by Clinique.
I wore Liz and Curves for years. Poison when Toonces and I were first together. I loved Ralph for a long time. Did a Tresor stunt. Gorgeous kinda recently....and wore Miracle Intense by Lancome for the past few years at work, and still on occasion. I've always wanted a bottle of Jessica McClintok but I know everyone would make me leave the room, especially Melanie and my mom, way too sweet!
There you go. Something new and meaningless about me. Some girly girl knowledge. But I am a considerate perfume wearer. I HATE it when women (or men) bath in cologne.
Around the feeder and photos of the day:
My "greenies" are turning bright yellow to my delight and I have fallen in love with my new visitor a titmouse. He actually has a bit of peachish coloring under his chin that doesn't seem to show here.
I know have 2 pair of mourning doves. I no longer get to put seed and nuts out once a week. It is every day! I am rolling through bird feed. I didn't know that was gonna happen.
Quote for today....
I have to drive to Martinsville today to get my license renewed before they expire Friday. I just had them re-done after we were married for a name change but I didn't re-new because the lady told me I had so many tickets I had to take the written test. I was afraid I would fail so I didn't. Hey you can't miss ANY signs or you fail. I know people this has happened to. So the DMV lady gave me the book to study. On my card I just received it only says Vision test required but I still studied just in case its a trick.
I am going to try to make them let me keep my picture from last summer because it is abnormally good. Almost comically good for a DL photo. People often comment on it. Just Sunday at the airport the lady at the gate ask us "How did you get a picture like that?" Toonces gives me a hard time over them.....for putting on my good dangling earrings and full makeup and hair and a fancy little top....just for my DL. And I was really tan from the wedding. I don't want to change it. It will never be that good again. It's like when you see ladies glamor shots for their ads to sell real estate.
I'd rather look CHEESY good than look like crap on them!-----yes I feel better, just tough springtime allergies. Livin' on Allegra D right now.
My favorite is quickly winding down to Taylor Hicks. He is one of the few that actually has some sense about the music world in America, and our fickleness. At least his song showed he could actually SING. It was kinda Van Morrison to me so I loved it.
That had to be one of the worst shows in Idol history. Especially since I was so looking forward to it.
Kelli Pickler- I have voted for her from the beginning. A few weeks she didn't deserve it. Last night she was just stupid. Can she really be just a dumb ass? How could you get the years in country you actually KNOW and screw it up that badly? She was horrid. And she said, "well I wanted to be cuuuttte." Well you get to be cute when you have actually sold a hit record. Cute won't win. Talent will and she lacked it last night. I couldn't vote for her.
Chris Daughtry- Stop it. The songs all sound the same. Simon was right in taking it too far. It is American Idol for goodness sakes not Metal Idol. I love rock and roll but I don't want you screaming at me during Idol. Not every damn week. Chris is great and deserves to be a star but he really did go too far last night for idol. I didn't vote for him this time either.
So I am just disappointed. Paris did shake things up this week. Literally. I loved her booty shaking performance. And Bucky seemed in his element and he really does try. So my votes....Taylor, Paris, Bucky and Katharine.
Going home? Who knows after that mess. My guess is Lisa or Ace.
Seth and Isabelle. Aren't they cute? (Caleb in the background.)
Monday night after the birthday party, Melanie (my sister) had B-Belle in her room giving her the "talk" about some "not so nice" behavior at the party. Nothing too major but B-Belle just broke down in pitiful tears and said "I had the best time and now you're ruining it".
I know how you feel B-Belle. I've been there myself. (sorry to steal your story sis.)
and for today......
What guides us is children's response, their joy in learning to dance, to sing, to live together. It should be a guide to the whole world. -Yehudi Menuhin
1. I do not have a picture of Toonces, unfortunately, in the glitter cape. Sorry. I wish I did. My next purchase will be a small inexpensive digital camera to carry out on nights like that. Something for just candid shots. I couldn't risk taking mine out Saturday night.
2. Somehow I had the wrong date on the site for Delane and Amy's anniversary. It was yesterday. Not today. Happy 8 years guys!
3. Nothing is ever simple. I wanted the deck and terrace complete before flower planting season started. Yeah right. Of all things our oil tank is buried out there under our current deck. We can't just build over it. It's already been there a long time and will eventually leak. So now we have to dig that up. Put in a new one. Lay it in a way that we can get to...... And the old brick porch has to be torn down on the far end of the house...you can't just rebuild over it. And we have to move the air conditioning unit. Sometimes I wish I were Samantha on Bewitched.
4. My b-day wish came true. I wished for us to all get home safely from Memphis. Very happy about that.
5. I hope I can make it to Spin. I have had a sore throat, bleeding sinuses and chest coldish symptoms for 2 days now. And I am so tired. Rollie may just stay in bed!