The puppies have kept me so busy, its a good thing. There were a few days pre-pup when I was right on the verge of calling my old boss and begging her to take me back...to find some way to get rid of the new girl and bring me back to work! "What in the hell was I thinking?" has gone through my mind more than once. I know, I must be an idiot.
I've had to keep my emotions in check, as I am a person totally controlled by emotion. Stop looking to the past and use this opportunity to be helpful to others, learn new things, ...mainly stop feeling sorry for myself. Try to remember how tired you were, how your eyes were getting bad, the long drive everyday, no time off. Poor Toonces trying to be nice and wanting you to be able to do anything you wanted in life gives you this opportunity. (like a child, want what you don't have) Yesterday I broke down and went to our local gym by myself, the owner is a sweetheart- its just not anywhere near as new and state of the art as mine was in Mount Airy. But you know what, so what? I still need to go and I will make it to my fancy gym whenever I can. Stop pouting, nothing ever gets accomplished by whining about it. In fact when I was there I found out a special class is going to start tonight that I have always wanted to try! I won't say what yet, we'll see if it works out. I'll just hint that I'll be more of a lethal machine than ever!